finals are over and half the CAKES have gone home. the rest of us will be out of berkeley by the end of the weekend. it's supposed to be a good feeling, right? the end of finals?
for some reason, as i walked out of my last final this evening, i felt no sense of joy. in fact, i was feeling quite the opposite. perhaps the best way i can describe it is as an absolutely overpowering sense of weighty relief (is that an oxymoron? too bad, because that's how i felt). this semester was hard. and draining. in so many unanticipated ways. and i think the weight of all the would-should-could have beens came crashing down on me in that moment with the realization that it is finally over.
but God always knows what He's doing. soon after getting back to cakes-ville, my mommy called and then a little later emailed me this video (hence the Chinese subtitles). it is kind of long, but i am sure you are all either done with finals or need a reason to procrastinate, so watch it. to the end. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=feVmD4dlW28&feature=player_embedded
i am not particularly inclined toward liking biology right now (checked my bio 1a grade on bearfacts already and it wasn't great), but this is undeniable. it cannot be coincidence. for those who trust in the Lord, He will literally hold you in His hand and carry you all of the days of your life. Psalm 33:18 says that "the the eye of the LORD is on those who fear Him, on those who hope in His steadfast love". the God who created the universe knows intimately your every action, word, thought, and feeling. so i better believe that God has wonderful things in store for me - this semester was meant to cultivate my trust in this truth.
i'm sorry if this was a little heavier than anticipated for a post-finals post =P have a wonderful Christmas break!
~A
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